Back To You

Seems like after
All you've done,
I would have learned by now...

Sometimes i question how smart i am,
I'm shocked at how much i allow...

Up and down,
Emotions flaring,
I don't know what more i can do...

Deep down i wonder what i am thinking,
When i keep coming back to you.

And you shout
And i cry
Seeing how deep a hole
You've violently thrown me into...

But i love you so much,
That despite all the scarring,
I keep coming back to you.

I'm living life,
But barely living,
Worried i'll do something wrong.

Being afraid of making you angry
Makes the days and nights seem slow and long...

Bring the wrath,
Bring the pain,
it's what i am accustomed to...

I have no where to turn,
no one else to love me,
So i keep coming back to you.

And you curse,
And i shake,
Knowing none of the love you gave me
Was remotely true...

But i love you so much,
That despite all the tearfall,
I keep coming back to you.

And i'll say that i'm done,
That i'm leaving,
so you no longer can break me in two...

But i love you so much,
that i feel like a liar,
When i keep coming back to you.